i was helping H. shoot a documentary on super 8 film which is apparently super hard to find these days because hollywood buys it all. last week went on a trip to the southwest of france near the pyrenees. surrounded by mountains and serendenpitous encounters with random animals. nature is louder and so is the silence.
5 Aug
i haven't painted anything in a while. i want to but i keep telling myself that now is not the right time. looking at the paint tubes sitting on my desk doesn't help either.
4 Aug
Why postcards? I’m not sure what draws me to this seemingly outdated form of communication. Maybe it’s the faux sense of nostalgia for a tradition I never actually got to practice—or perhaps simply an urge to escape today’s always-online, engagement-driven digital noise. But there is a genuine weight to physical mail that digital messages just can't match. couldn’t resist the side quest — Paprika's Postal Service. the goal was to be able to create & ship a postcard as easily as tweeting someone.
20 Jul
i believe the execution while the idea is still raw, untested and flawed can result in the best projects but at the same time it feels like procrastination im trying to restrain myself to not start doing side-quests and release an initial version of the project instead
17 Jul
it was also good to step away from the project for a bit to eliminate the creator bias H. came to visit for a couple weeks. theres always a short weird period of recalibration after not meeting a person irl for a while and only seeing each other through video calls. it's as if your mental model of this person starts to shift and the porpotions get slightly changed. just as strange is how quickly this effect fades away
16 Jul
we also found my new goto thai place nearby walking around in trails in sintra without actually going into any of the crowded parks is still one of my favorite activities
15 Jul
visiting a castle in Sintra
4 Jul
Its so hot…
21 Jun
Māra
20 Jun
love the feeling of the morning sun warmth in my head at some point comparison with others stops being helpful
17 Jun
also increasingly attracted to the color pale green im interested in studying set theory again. i think i will take it a bit slower this time and hopefully i’ll be able to get further into it.
13 Jun
this will be the last software i build
11 Jun
is it just me? i always have a song playing in my head that i can’t turn off i want my paintings to be like a Gaspar Noé movie
3 Jun
there are many parallels between art making and software development. sometimes to unlock something it helps to think “what if this project was a painting?” and vice versa…
2 Jun
i will start downsizing and using sub domains for my projects instead
31 May
Fuzao (浮躁) is so good
30 May
something off with my energy levels the last couple of days
26 May
might fuck around and draw a whole new alphabet of characters@142 two for two!
25 May
first good sleep in months
23 May
idk y i couldn’t edit them like this before rummaged through old film photos then edited some
21 May
ive been on a binge of Indonesian horror films lately
19 May
slow couple of days followed by sudden bursts of energy with lots of motivation and excitement
16 May
forgot my twitch acc
15 May
he likes it! got a new ball for the dog, lets see if he likes it
14 May
2LDK (2003) is cool perks of waking up early the sunrise looks beautiful, i feel like i woke up on dune
13 May
its starts with an idea. raw, imperfect. there was a time when that was all i needed to make a half baked software and ship it. now im trying to find my way back to that recklessness had to narrow down the scope, set a clear roadmap and focus on having something that i can share publicly
12 May
today is allergies day
11 May
i'm genetically incompatible w/ cats@83 but not in the good exciting way setting up a Telegram bot for this blog made a huge different in how much i write on here. and lisbon has fully evolved into a theme park now. we went to an izakaya yesterday. the service was all over the place but food was ok.
10 May
i had an idea during sleep but i cant remember what it was. all i remember is thinking that i should write it down…
9 May
@73 Verbosity as retraceable artifacts. A canvas for visual exploratory creative development.
8 May
Spending the whole day debugging a small issue is not fun I love to see artist friends whose work I really like succeed
6 May
im baking an orange cake nice to chat with H. today. see you soon! shout outs to my cats. i can’t really tell if they like me or they’re hungry happy bday P.!
5 May
Feels like every day there’s a new reason to procrastinate ready to be discovered
4 May
I found a few new apps since I started this project. Every single one misses the point of spacial awareness in a node-based application and chooses instead to focus on lowering the bar for slop generation. something about So Close (2002) is so warm and nostalgic I really need to fix my sleep schedule May the 4th be with you
3 May
hello world
1 May
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